Jets Are Like Comets At Sunset

exiled_muse @ 2005-08-05T12:22:00

2005-08-05T16:22:32Z

Goddamnit I hate you, Tain.

I RANDOMLY LIVE.

2005-03-27T01:31:49Z

oh my god mel gibson waxing his legs hahahaha

I so want it.

exiled_muse @ 2004-09-28T19:39:00

2004-09-28T23:39:30Z

Still alive, still kickin.

Still under constant (appreciated!) gropeage.

Haha.

Speaking of. I've got a guest over and must entertain him, so I'm gonna make this quick.

Went up North for my birthday last weekend. Big ol' two-six. S'really fuckin weird to think that 26 years've gone by so quickly.

Lessee... got a cake and some beautiful personalized, blank sheet music from Reina (by the way, Kireina, the cake's gone. fuckin gone. and it wasn't even my fault. I live with a thief, you understand - at least I got to have a majority of it), a brand new amp from Niko, alcohol! from D, and happywonderful morning sex and a personalized (hand painted, even, bless 'im to death whether he likes it or not) guitar pick from the koibito.

I fucking love you guys.

Okay, demon in my lap.

Okay. Nice hands. Gotta love the wanderlust hands. in naughty places.

woo, okay, bye.

Bleh.

2003-12-16T17:19:13Z

I suck at LiveJournal, huh?

Bah. Whatever.

I... don't have a goddamn thing to say, but Aeaon prodded me to show my existence, and that's what I'm doin.

Here is me. Here is my existence. Me and my existence.

Happy?

Didnt think so.

I miss Dimitri.

Um.

2003-09-27T04:54:59Z

Please don't ask. I'm over it. I, uh... think.

AAAAGGGGHHH

2003-09-23T21:26:42Z

....FUCKINGPIECEOFSHIT.

Motherfucker.

No, seriously. MOTHER. FUCKER.

GUESS who had the worst day in the WOOOORLD, everyone?

Oh, you're damn fucking ~~STRAIGHT~~ GAY it was me.

Details later, too miffed to think.

exiled_muse @ 2003-09-13T00:16:00

2003-09-13T04:19:34Z

Once, I didn't think it was possible to love someone so much that it hurts.

It's possible.

And now: Vanity.

2003-08-30T19:59:45Z

From the ever-wonderful, lovely amphitrite, who rules all the known universe.

< /kissingass >

1] You knew this was coming. If you were STRAIGHT (::coughassmunchcough::), which female would you date? Don't you cringe at me like that.
Actually, contrary to popular belief, this isn't the first time I've had the subject pop up around me. I used to question myself a lot, you know; I think I seriously am pansexual or somethin'. Either that, or I'm just attracted to pretty things in general, except males... appeal to me more? ...uh, whatever. Off topic. But... hm. Almost a tough question, because most of the girls I know are like sisters to me. And that's just weird. But... if I had to choose from the bunch... Io-chan would be on my list, fanauthor or not. She's got one hell of an imagination, and that's beautiful to me. "Celebrity" wise... Rikku. I think Rikku and I would make an interesting couple. ...feels weird talking like that. I think I'll stick to Dimitri, thankyakindly.

2] We all know that music is your thang. It helped you get through your hard times. Was there an exact moment when you knew that you wanted to make music?
Yeah, there was. But you would know, my memory's really weird. The whole brainwashing sequence that actually worked back then really fucked up my head, I think... but as far as I can remember, it was the only way for me to talk without talking to myself, or talking to the people who weren't there. Yanno how I was alone for awhile, right? Well, music was like my only companion. I vaguely remember finding a guitar in a back alley... musta been left there by one of those street performers who sit on the sidewalk and play with money or something. It was a little broken, but I taught myself how to fix it. No, no holy magic necessary. *g* I think I can honestly say that the moment I found the guitar was probably when my passionate affair with music started up.

3] Your hair (which is more like a mane, if you ask me): If you'd change it, what would it be like?
You know as well as I do that if I ever change my hair, I'd be slaughtered. But... Idunno, I guess I'd probably get a Squall-ish cut... all layered and feathered like his. And I'd lighten the color a little... maybe dirty blonde or somethin. It's hard to conjure a mental image because I can't picture myself ever doin it. My hair, cheesy as it sounds, means a lot to me. It's like my trademark.

4] Any reason in particular for all the piercings?
Not really, but I can say that I have a weak spot for body art. Tattoos are incredibly beautiful to me... because I like when someone can express themselves outwardly and permanently on their own skin like that. Piercings are pretty much the same thing. S'good not to go overboard, but most can really bring out someone's features. People didn't used to notice my eyes until I got the eyebrow done, yanno? It draws attention. I like attention. I don't care how many people tell me that I'm gonna start sticking to refrigerators or whatever. It's all about expression and willingness to show your difference on the outside... showing that you're not afraid to seperate yourself or go through the pain for it. Heh, look at this, ya got me all philosophical and crap. I've been trying to talk Dimitri into a tattoo or piercing. Not sure how my convincing's goin yet, though.

5] Just how many instruments DO you play? And don't get hentai, baka.
...fine. Fine, REAL instruments, then. My guitar is my BABY. If someone lays a finger on it without my permission, I hunt them down, beat them, and cook them for dinner. ...or leave them in an alleyway. Hell, anyway, I've been trying to learn bass... gettin better at it... and Bashi's been working on getting me acquainted with his drumset. People know they can trust me with their instruments. I handle instruments like I handle my lover. I'm very careful and I don't abuse. Not like friggin' Dust, who nearly KILLED Bashi's cymbal. I'm very, very good at the piano, if I do say so myself. I can play a professional piece without so much as blinking. Guess it's a natural talent.

RULES
1 -- Interview. Want? Leave a comment, and I'll bestow.
2 -- Said bestow will be five random-as-hell questions.
3 -- You'll answer them, and post them on your own LJ, bitch.
4 -- Include the rules. Or I'll get violent.
5 -- If someone asks of you an interview, YOU shall bestow, sayeth the all-knowing Angel of... something.

While Dimitri showers.

2003-08-26T16:57:48Z

Uh huh. Should I be amused? I'm actually sorta freaked out.

Nice.

2003-08-19T17:17:57Z

I'm off for a couple of days. Me and Dimitri are gonna help Io-chan move into college.

No, I am not gonna bother her. I jus' wanna help. And I'll be back by Saturday to help K move in.

Ah, so many of my little pawns, growin up so fast.

Back from my... erm... hiatus.

2003-07-17T18:32:47Z

Please excuse the lack of updates. Dimitri stayed over for quiiite a long time. I'm sure that justifies for something, ne? *g*

The tattoo was a great success, though. The piercings were even better... he had one hell of a time with those. I'm very, very thankful that he knows how to be... gentle.

It's okay if they still hurt though, right? Especially when it's cold. Christ. *grimace*

Band practice, ho!

Note to Dust: Try not to kill me this time, 'kay bud? Live wires produce sparks. Let's not hurl them in Rikou's direction the next time they spark.

Can I go numb now? Please?

2003-07-02T15:45:05Z

I have a really, really low pain threshold, apparently.

But honestly. OW. I knew getting my nipples pierced would hurt but... ahhh goddamn, not THAT much. And then the tattoo?

egh.

I was up all night bitching and moaning about it. Doesn't hurt to lay on my SIDE, but I'm not usually a side-sleeper, so... I kinda couldn't sleep. 'least I tried.

I don't know who I feel more sorry for... me, or Dimitri.

groan.

2003-06-28T02:28:26Z

Last night was a reminder.

"Rikou: Never, ever, EVER get tired of sleepovers... evereverever."

I let D kick my ass in air hockey (honestly? I've never played so he would have beaten me down anyway), and we watched and made fun of Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon. Never thought the word "stick" could be so funny to me.

And we were drunk. I have no clue what we were drunk OFF of, but trust me, we were painfully drunk.

That is all.

Snort.

2003-06-21T17:38:34Z

exiled_muse
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Running on sleep deprevation

2003-06-20T23:45:01Z

Back home, and he's doin fine. I was really worryin about him.

But it's okay! Everything's fine, and he's doing good. I took care of him. Someone's gotta, right? I made sure he was completely comfortable. Mi casa es su casa. I don't know if I spelt that fucker right, but... yeah.

More on that later. I got a wad of paperwork to trudge through.

Argh. Just argh.

2003-06-17T16:09:42Z

I'm going to be staying with Dameon for awhile... makin sure he recooperates well.

Or doesn't cut himself again. By accident.

I'll be back in a couple of days.

Dot. Dot. Dot.

2003-06-13T03:56:01Z

There's a lot of shit happening. This is bad. Bad bad bad bad.

Dameon, you better get better... I'm worryin' to hell.

And Dimitri... come over whenever you can. I think talking about this shindig will make me less nervous about it.

Bundleofnerves.

Ironic. I can watch a man get shot in the head without flinching, but hand me a problem I can't solve by myself an' I hit the roof.

Rrrrr.

2003-06-08T21:49:42Z

Note to self: Need about 700 or so more pounds of Pocky.

...

Another note to self: Ambition drive low. Must refuel as soon as possible.

Le sigh.

[[Edit: By the way, Dameon, I think it worked. Was gettin' kinda tipsy there, if I do say so m'self. Muaha!]]

Holy shit, I'm tired...

2003-06-08T05:41:24Z

First posted survey. Much ass-kickage.

1.Do you like having your picture taken? Yep. Attention whore, anyone?
2.Have you ever done a photo shoot, professional or non? Only for band promotions. We were only SUPPOSED to take, like... ten or so pictures, but it took us over thirty before we finished. Someone needs to SEDATE Dust, seriously...
3.If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go and why? I've been everywhere I've wanted to go. I'm fine with that.
4.Who would you take with you on this little adventure? I took myself. That's all I needed at the time.
5.What would you say is the most daring thing to do in a lifetime? To truly fall in love, I'd say.
6.Would you ever do that? I have. I am.
7.Have you ever done crossword puzzles? No, actually.
8.Ever actually completed one? I'd be bored by the first word or so, trust me.
9.Pick up the closest book and write a sentence at random from it. "We all have Hitler in us, but we also have love and peace. So why not give peace a chance for once?" - John Lennon, The Beatles by Theresa Celsi
10.Do the same with a lyric from either a cd or the radio. "On my knees, I pray to you, help me find the dawn of the dying day.. would you light my way?" - Audioslave, Light My Way
11.Have you ever tried to analyze your own dreams? Nah.
12.Would you put up posters in your room? Well, if I wanted to, I would...
13.Can you sing? ...THAT'S a stupid question. Anyone wanna answer that for me? knightvision? sapphirereina? kimikora?
14.Do you ever sing to yourself while doing everyday tasks? I practically sing in my sleep. Why do you think I have a tendency to lose my voice?
15.What's your favorite color of post-it note? ...yellow?
16.How many cassette tapes do you own? Heh.. only the ones in my recorder...
17.How many cd's do you own? Waaay too many.
18.Ever bought a cd for just one song? What's the point, when you can download?
19.What would your perfect day consist of? Lots of sleeping, to begin with. A few hours alone with my guitar. Getting to talk to D or Aeaon at least once. Having Dimitri come over in the evening, and spending the night with him. Mmm. I like that.
20.Have you ever lied to get off the phone or out of talking to someone on line? I don't use the phone, truthfully.
21.Have you ever written a survey? Nope.
22.How about a song? I've written tons of songs!
23.Or maybe a poem? Heh, all my poems turn INTO songs, eventually.
24.Is your vcr flashing 12:00 all the time? That would drive me fuckin' crazy.
25.Do you read your horoscope? Only when I manage to catch it.
26.If so, do you base your day on it? Nah.
27.Would you rather chew gum or use mouthwash and why? ?? How is this relevent to ANYTHING..?
28.Do you floss? What's it to ya?
29.Are you addicted to napster like me? Isn't Napster considered 01D s|<001 now or somethin'?
30.How many times a year about are you sick? Not many. I have an amazing immune system now and junk.
31.Ever been in an airplane? Yep.
32.If so where were you flying to? I forget.
33.What radio station to you listen to most? 101.7, when I bother with the radio at all.
34.What color are your shoes? White sneakers... black buckle-ups.
35.Was fuzzy wuzzy a bear? So the stories say.
36.Do you know how to play dominos? Yeh, but it's boring. It's only fun when you knock 'em over and stuff.
37.Or do you think I just mean pizza by that? ... actually, that WAS the first thing that came to mind.
38.Speaking of pizza, what's your favorite kind? Pepperoni, mushrooms, extra cheese, and green peppers. Preferably stuffed crust. And now I'm freaking hungry. Thanks.
39.What color are your eyes? Reddish-brown. It's madd krazee.
40.How many surveys have you filled out this lifetime? See, I get bored easily...
41.Describe your bedroom, include all details. Okay. You walk in, and right across from the door's my bed... standard double, black comforter. Two wooden nightstands beside it, one with a lamp and the other with a clock. Various shit stashed inside both. Stereo against the same wall on the left side, amplifier with my guitar on the right. Far right wall... drawers. Closet. VERY VERY messy desk. On the far left, a big ol' CD rack. Next to that, a filing cabinet with magents stuck all over it. TV with a Playstation hooked up cornering that wall and the wall with the door. That's about it. Standard.
42.Name one person your life is made better by. Dimitri.
43.Would you or have you ever shaven your head? NO! Are you crazy? People would kill me!
44.How about someone else's? When drunk, anything can happen.
45.Can you do math with ease? Not really.
46.What size is your computer screen? Uh... regular?
47.If you could only talk to one person online who would that be? I talk to whoever keeps my attention. Y'know.. intelligent folk.
48.Name your favorite type of music and why. Rock. Guitar riffs, people.
49.Are you a vegetarian? Nope.
50.How about an aspiring actor/actress? Could possibly be one.
51.What famous person dead or alive would you interview if you had the chance? Jimi Hendrix.
52.Which movie can you watch and say the lines along with the actors? The Stand.
53.Name one of your passions in life. Having a smile be ALL my fault.
54.What's your least favorite time of day? Early morning.
55.Who's your favorite member in a band, singer, guiter, bass, drummer, and why? Read a few of my other answers thus far. Then, decide.
56.Do you use hairspray or gel? Nope.
57.Describe your favorite meal. Homemade.
58.What color is the inside of your head when you close your eyes? Black background with white and a tinge of light green.
59.Ever listen to classical music? Violin and piano kick ass.
60.Have you ever said lol in real life without thinking about it? ...no.
61.Do you find you use internet language when writing notes irl? ....no.
62.What songs would be on your ideal cd? (unlimited) My IDEAL CD would be one released by us...
63.Say one thing you've learned today. A veeeerry naughty conversation in my semi-native tongue.
64.What is the best present you've ever given someone else? I really think the giant candycane I scrounged up last Christmas was... thoroughly enjoyed.
65.What is the best present someone else has ever given to you? A heart.
66.So hey, what's your full name? Rikou Donovan.
67.Describe yourself while drunk. I stumble over every word that comes out of my mouth... I start to believe that I am all-powerful... I start giggling hysterically... a lot of weird various shit happens... and then I get horny.
68.How big are the windows in your house? Small. Only got two.
69.Do you wear a watch? Not usually.
70.What's the kinkiest thing you've ever done with someone else? Oh, I have a mental list that could circle the planet at least twice. And here, I thought you were satisfied with the candycane innuendo...
71.What's the largest age difference between you and someone you've dated? Generally, it's around the same physical age.
72.How many mirrors do you have? One.
73.Write one sentence stating what you want people to say about you after you've passed on. 'Kou was able to reach out and touch at least one life.
74.Have you ever sailed? Nope.
75.How fast can you run? Fast. Speeeed demon, man.
76.What do you believe in? Myself.
77.How long does it take you to get ready to go out? Not very long, if it's casual. When it's some kind of fancy thing, I take time. I have to. You know how much hair I have? A LOT.
78.Do you shower daily? If not how often? Every day.
79.What one thing would you change in your life if you had the power to do so? I guess... any of the hardships my friends have been going through.
80.Describe the ideal superpower and what you would do if you had it. Telekinesis. Think'a how amusing that could get.
81.Are candles romantic or a fire hazard? Romantic.
82.Name something you've done in the last 24hrs no matter how big or small. Kissed the tip of someone's nose.
83.Do you wear necklaces, bracelets, anklets, earrings. rings? Earrings, a ring, and a necklace.
84.What colors are you wearing right now? White and navy blue.
85.How often do you change the sheets on your bed? 'Least once a week.
86.Have you ever gotten lost? If so explain. Nope.
87.What's on your computer desk? Umm... everything but the kitchen sink? Hell, for all I know, that could be shoved in there, somewhere...
88.How many folders are on your desktop at the present moment? Twelve...? I think it's twelve...
89.When your talking do you ever use your hands to do quotation marks in the air when saying certain words? Yeah. Habit now.
90.Which landmark would you climb if you could? Hell, I don't know...
91.Do you own or have you read, or thought of reading any self-help books? Nope.
92.Ever seriously questioned your sanity? I do that often.
93.Can you breakdance? No. But I can dance. Just... not breakdance.
94.What's in your fridge right now? Eh. Food of some sort. I'm not picky.
95.How many people do you live with? I live alone, unless you count Dimitri or D or Aeaon popping in and spending a day or two every once in awhile.
96.Have you or would you ever do anything more than kiss in a public area? Of course.
97.What is the strangest thing you've ever done? Cooking something without any kind of proper instructions or recipe. They... LOOKED like sugar cookies, kinda, but they didn't taste like anything.
98.Name an instrument you've never played but would like to. Hmm. Violin.
99.Have you ever been on tv or the radio? Yep.
100.What is the worst thing anyone could ever do to you? Turn my back on my friends.
101.Are you a fast typer? Eh. Mediocre.
102.How high have you counted before getting bored? Ahh.. fifteen?
103.Describe how you sleep. I fall asleep on my side - usually facin' someone - and wake up on my stomach. I'm an ugly-as-sin sleeper, too. I move around, mutter, kick, make a ton of weird noises...
104.Are you straight, bi, gay? Gay. At least, I think I am. Definitely like men, but... eh... with women.
105.Do you ever do something else while on the computer? Snack on something, usually. Play around with WinAmp.
106.What is the most expensive item you own? One of my instruments hafta rank up there somewhere.
107.How about the least expensive? Friendship.
108.What's your favorite card game to play? Poker and Bullshit.
109.What do you do online? Typical online stuff.
110.Name some stores you've bought clothes in before. I don't do the brand thing.
111.Have you ever read a book and not understood it? Not really. Rikou iz a smart guy.
112.Have you ever watched a movie and not understood it? Reservoir Dogs. What the HELL was THAT all about?
113.Do people pick up your slang language more than you pick up theres? Yeh, probably.
114.Are you easily influenced by other people, or currant trends? No. Most of the current trends make me cringe.
115.What makes you unique in your own opinion? Everyone's unique somehow.
116.Name your worst quality. Paranoia.
117.Name your best. Passion. Any kind of it.
118.What would you like to do with your life? Just... be happy with it. And wherever it takes me, I want the people I care about to be happy with me.
119.Do you blowdry your hair? Yes. If I don't, it'll frizz... and when it frizzes, it's uncontrollable.
120.How many clocks are in your house? One.
121.Are they all set on the same time? Yep, seeing as how it's the only one.
122.Have you ever intentionally set a clock ahead or behind the actual time? No, that annoys me.
123.What do you think about when you first wake up in the morning? It's never coherent, whatever th'hell it is.
124.Which browser do you use? IE.
125.Do you bite your nails? Nervous habit.
126.Would you ever leave little notes to your gf/bf? From time to time, yeh.
127.Ever been to a farm? I think so. I forget. My memory got all screwed up somewhere back in the mid-teens...
128.Tell me about your dream last night. Aside from those little dreams that randomly JERK you awake fer no reason... I don't think I had one worth remembering.
129.Ever seen a shooting star? Yup. S'a great sight...
130.Say one thing about yourself you've never told anyone. I'm mildly dyslexic.
131.Do your days fly by or seem to last forever? Kinda depends on what I'm doing.
132.Have you ever stayed in a fancy high class rich hotel? No.
133.Have you ever stayed in a rent-by-the-hour motel? No.
134.What in your opinion is the best advertising slogan out there? Probably Nike's. "Just do it."
135.When they start sending rockets to the moon for us civilians, will you be on the list to go? Ch'yeah!
136.How are you feeling right now? REALLY tired.
137.Have you ever written anything on your skin? Only when I have nothin' else to jot something down on...
138.If so what? Notes to self. Various doodles when I'm bored.
139.Which website do you frequent most often? LJ, Fredart, Homestarrunner... fucking TROGDOR. That's the most annoyingly addictive game...
140.What color is most of your clothes? Warm colors.
141.Do you own any plants? No. Niko-chan would molest 'em.
142.Are things as bad as they seem? Not ALL the time.
143.Descibe the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you. He stayed with me and kept me warm back when I came down with that REALLY bad sickness.
144.Ever looked directly at the sun? Yeah. Don't.
145.Have you ever made a pin hole camera to watch the eclipse? Nnnope.
146.What's your favorite cereal? Smacks.
147.Who do you miss? My sister.
148.Name something you just can't forget no matter how hard you try. Naade.
149.Describe the worst fight you've ever been in whether physical or verbal. Again, Naade. Started off as a horrible verbal fight and morphed into us beatin the shit outta each other.

Now. I'm about to fall asleep, and I got a warm body waitin for me back in bed. I'm so out.

HolyHell, it's LIVEJOURNAL!

2003-06-07T04:05:35Z

Moving in from the dysfunctional Blurty.com!

I'm gonna be cheap, here, and post what I posted there. Ready? Coo'.

Okay, so... here's the low-down on the down-low. Word. Whaddap?

...for starters, I only speak those ebonics JOKINGLY. As in, not serious. ...at all.

I'm 24 years old. I'm ho-ma-sex-shul. I'm taken, and I just happen to be in love. ...this sounds like a wanted ad. Or better yet, an ad for a product! "Iiiiit's da KOU-MEISTER! He's here...! He's queer...!"

...anyway.

I'm a musician. Singer slash songwriter slash guitarist slash pianist (not, of course, to be mistaken for a penist.) I manage my own band (Ebony Wings) and every once in awhile, I sing for 'em. I can't help it. My voice is so orgasmically sexy. Ha. Haha. Woo. This is me dripping and oozing and ejaculating sarcasm.

Annnd... er. ..people are jealous of my hair.

...

What? Idunno what the hell to say. I already got some statistics in there, whaddya want?

Ta-daaa.